starts bad

now i am dating emily my parents are already against her supposedly forbidding us to see each other we sneak around not like you would think though breaks at work are reallt only time of seeing each other other time church....one sunday again my mom is screaming at my about her and says im forbidden to see her once again...at this point i have had it and take up and say no..shanda then stops her car in the middle of the road and tells me to getout  so i do she drives so crazy my littpe sister is screaming for her to stop...i walk back to my church and telp my dad i have to go...i move in woth my best friend kevin in am apartment....they get my car and i am forced to quit school in the middle of my senior year...next it syarts getting horrible for me being in church even though mpved out parents still went to the same church...after moving out my personality my body and mind started deppresing i didnt want church or god so i tried getting out i got tattooed up and went south..emilu and my grandmother could do nothing but watch as i sprialed down i didnt want help or sympathy i quit drums at church and started looking for another one sitting  in church my mom and sosters gave dirty looks and spread rumors of me getting emily pregnant and me being aliar cgeater and theif....i then one day hit the altar broke down from demons and family shuning me and labeling me as nothing im tild dauly im dead to everyone im screwing my life up when they broke me down into what i had become....regret sank in i have tattois and have left my churcj i came back to my home churchjist to walk into the same trap my mom started again trying to get under my skin with same old stuff....i go to section 11 youth rallies with emily as a place to escape to little did i know shanda and krysta were there....now to section 11 im labeled and emily is labeled according to the past when we are changed i am now a tattood rebel and emily is label just a horrible person noone talks to us jist behind our back....

and then its started looki.g up...

start to middle

thongs havent always been this way from the time i was born is when my life started to go bad.my biological fatger beat my mom tried having me aborted and cared nothing about me ...my mom and i were thrown down staor punched and final straw us hiding inbetween cars from him chasing us with a car....7-10 years later....im with my mom dad and little sister everything is ok we are all getting into church and everything im now 16 years old and am at church and i met my current girlfriend emily....we date and have been dating for two years and thats where my life was so great from having her but spiraling down with family....

beggning of it all

my life as all of you know it is different...as each and every one of you see me.you wpuld most likely see a man that is happy and enjoying life but none will ever know my true life. or well they woupdnt have until now.. in some way i can only hope this will help someone in this world going through the same thing as me some will laugh some will cry..some will think and some will understand.....this is my story this is my life.....